by Jessica Popescu
There is a legend … a story about a girl with no family, no friends and no hope.
Before night was night, before day was day, there was a story. In that story, hope was lost, and nothing could bring it back. The sun didn’t even exist. Only darkness … and sadness … That was how the world was for this girl. Losing her parents when she was only five, the memory of her mother’s last smile was still as clear in her mind as it had been 15 years ago. She knew, now, when she was in the same state like her, that only a miracle could save her from the fate her mother and father had had before her.
During the past weeks, the girl wouldn’t speak to anyone. She was more secretive than ever before and only the sun could bring her happiness. The only thing that she ever wanted to see was the thing that had made her mother laugh. But it was impossible for her to do that. Being born blind, she had never been able to see what we have always seen, what we know and love. For her, day and night did not exist, neither the sun, nor the moon ore the stars. Only darkness, light never approaching her thoughts.
“Life is like a flower: it grows, it blooms and finally dies.” That was her favorite quote. Ironically, this blind girl loved flowers because of the way this word sounded, the touch of the delicate petals when she was touching them, their smell and the things she had heard about them.
Most of the times, she would cry, the ones around her not understanding the reason why. But there was one. She had never seen her parents, neither had she seen their funeral. She had been there, but she had never seen the people she was crying for. She was feeling like she was alone, living like the flowers she loved so much to talk about, but which she never managed to see.
For more than 5 years, she lived in a hospital, the doctors not knowing what she was suffering from. But by the age of only 17, she could no longer move her legs. However, something wonderful happened in the years she spent there. She managed to see the entire world, through the eyes of another patient who died only one year after she had arrived. She found out, that darkness, was just another type of light and that with it, and all her other senses, she could see the world, the way it really is.
The big mystery was that she really begun to see the world. She could see the sun, by only feeling its warm rays comforting her, she could see the sea, the echo of her laughter filling her up with joy, and she could see the wind, by only feeling the pleasant breeze. She had managed in only 4 years, to light up her life. And, without knowing, she managed to have the only thing she wished for: love. From the patients, from the doctors and even from the visitors, due to her new found goal: to live the life she was given.
But life was cruel with her till the end. One night, she couldn’t sleep. All night she had heard weird sounds, like gates opening and closing. They sounded like they were made out of glass. They must have been beautiful. But she was feeling, how life began to leave her body, how the sand from her life’s hourglass was falling, only a few grains remaining in the upper side. She was alone again, like she had been for her entire life. But she didn’t mind. She liked to be alone. And she couldn’t imagine a better ending than this one with memories of people laughing by her side and without tears falling down on their cheeks for her. She knew that if they had been there with her, they would have cried. She didn’t want that. She only wanted to remember them the way they truly were, the way she liked them to be ~ happy.
The final grain of sand for her fell, and by closing her unused eyes, she fell into a deep sleep, from which she could never wake up.
But, her life didn’t end at that point. The girl woke up, but by opening her eyes, she didn’t see darkness. She saw light. A weird thing she had never imagined. Everything was so bright. She could actually see something else. She could actually … see.
An endless ocean appeared in front of her. She was sitting somewhere on the cost line, surrounded by millions of flowers, all colored in many different shades. It was like in a dream. Tears of joy appeared in her eyes. She was a lot happier than ever before. But this was not over yet. A bright circle began to emerge from the ocean. The light it brought with it warmed the girl’s cheeks. She knew that sensation. It was the sun, and it was beyond words. And there, in its light, something appeared. Supported by what seemed to be clouds, a gate came out of nowhere, first like a shadow, but next like a real thing. It was made out of gold bars and glass. There, came out her mom. She was exactly the way she had imagined her. But something was different. On her mom’s back, the girl saw a pair of angelic wings, which were whiter than the clouds. She was dressed in a comfortable white robe and she opened her arms to greet her daughter.
The girl felt like in heaven. She didn’t remember the last time she had felt so happy. She wished to go up to her, embrace her, the way she used to. But how could she get up there? Maybe, with the help of her own wings…
Before she could notice, a pair of angel-like wings appeared on her own back. They were so beautiful. Now, she was just like her mom. Our girl had just become an angel. She got up on her own two feet then spread her wings which took her up in the air, her white feathers guiding her to the gate, and to happiness.
The girl could not only feel the ocean’s breeze, she could see it. The ocean was shining like a diamond, and while flying towards the gates, she remembered all those whom she had left behind. She remembered their faces and what way they had made her feel. She was determined to wait for them, and see them. By the time she landed and embraced her mother on the clouds, the gates had begun to close. Their sound was heavenly, just like everything around her. And by the time the gates completely closed, she had made a promise to herself: to stay in this world of light and wait for her friends, and why not, try to make some new friends too.
The sun began to shine stronger and stronger, till the gates disappeared within its light and with them, the girl and her memories.
Back at the hospital, the doctor who had to check up on the girl, found her without breath, and with no pulse. A tear ran down his cheek, but he quickly wiped it out. He saw the serene expression on the dead girl’s face and he knew that wherever she was, she was happy. He bent down to her and gave her a sweet kiss on her forehead. He was sad to see her go, but happy to see that before her time was up, she had managed to smile one last time.
The doctor couldn’t say “good bye”. He didn’t want to say it. In exchange, he only said: “Till we meet again, my little angel …”
I cannot say what happened to the doctor or the girl’s spirit. Nor could I say what she looked like. I am sorry to say that I can’t even let you know her name. But if you’re lucky, then maybe she will visit you in a dream, hoping you will become friends. She might tell you her story, her secrets and her dreams, and maybe, whisper somewhere at the end, her name … just like she did to me.
- Roz dekha hai